Hey Bec, I hope all went well this last week. I can see how it can be hard letting your favorite older sister go. I felt some of those same feeling this last week as I thought about all that is going on. Then I realized how special it is for them to be experiencing celestial things and to be living the Gospel of Jesus Christ. The first few weeks of my mission, I thought "I wish I could hear President Laycock speak every day. It would help me so much to be happy and to want to go and work and feel good" That´s kind of the same with Rach for us. We really want her to be around to we can have fun with them and be happy. This last couple of weeks, I have experienced something great. I really don´t need to hear President Laycock every morning. I found someone new that I receive strength from everyday. That someone is Heavenly Father. I found that if I pray to him every morning and night really sincerely, like a real conversation, than I receive strength. I ask questions and listen and tell him all about my day and how I am feeling. It feels so good to just talk to Him. He really knows us and wants to help us. I know that He loves you and wants to help you too in all that you do. I know that as you seek to find Him, you will. I love you Bec and am praying for you. I am praying mostly that the Gospel of Jesus Christ will sink deep into you while you are young. We can´t return to live with Heavenly Father and our Family if we have sins. The gospel of Jesus Christ, helps us to be clean from our sins,...if we live it. There is an article of faith that helps us understand what the Gospel of Jesus Christ is and what we have to do to us it. It starts like this "We believe that the first principles and ordinances of the gospel are...I love you Bec and will pray for you. Love Elder Tilley